Bringing it up to speed

June 22, 2012 - So after waiting almost 6 years for this moment in time, I was driving our little guy Seth to VBS when my cell phone rings and its CCAI calling to inform me that they received a package from China and our match was in the envelope. Because my husband & I had decided to put our adoption file on hold a few months prior, due to the wait of not knowing when the referral was going to happen, they were calling to talk about the match and to see if we still wanted the details of what could be our daughter. Well "Duh" like I was going to say "No, we're not interested". Anyways, I immediately said, "Yes, I would like to know the details", to which the nice lady responded "Well, right now I can't give you any information because everything is written in Chinese, so we are going to translate all the information into English and we will be calling you back on Monday". Needless to say, it was a long emotional weekend for all of us.  

So, immediately after I hung up with the agency, I began to pray to all mighty God. My hands were sweating, my heart was beating very fast, I could not think straight. I began to talk to my best friend, Jesus, and I poured out my heart. I told the Lord that although so much time had passed, I wasn't the least ready for this call, on the contrary we only had X amount of money in the bank and we were in the process of trying to buy a house, not adopt a child. However, if these plans were ordained and blessed by HIM than I would be more than happy to re-route our plans and do his will whatever it may be. I felt a sense of peace come over me, and I knew right away that this call and this moment was coming from God himself. I began to cry my heart out and I immediately called my husband. I informed him of the call that I received from our adopting agency and I told him everything they told me. His response was "Why would they be calling you, if we informed them that we were putting our file on hold?"  Well as GOD would have it, the file was not going to be put on hold, obviously our plans of buying a house was going to be put on hold and are hearts were now about to be transformed into a place of love for a little orphaned baby girl named "Lin Yong Mei".

After my husband got home that evening, we sat and talked about what we were going to do. My husband's heart was totally in another place, but my heart was standing in awe of God's presence and how HE was revealing himself to me. I immediately asked my prayer warriors to pray for discernment, provision, guidance, clarity and for us to see GOD's will, especially for my husband. It was an evening of lots of prayers. That night when my husband went to bed, I felt a strong urge to lay hands over him and pray for GOD to reveal truth and clarity about this whole adoption thing. So, that's exactly what I did. I layed hands over my husband while he slept and prayed for God's truth and clarity to permeate his heart.

The next morning was Saturday.  I woke up bright and early, made some coffee while the rest of the gang slept in, and dug deep into God's word for a long time. I continued to pray for God's guidance and for HIS will to be done. At 11am, my husband woke up and came out of the bedroom and said to me "Good morning honey, I am not sure what happened from yesterday til this morning but I woke up very focused and with much clarity in my head. We are placing the house hunt on the back burner and we are moving forward with this adoption. I feel that this is where GOD is leading us".  WOW, talk about an answer to prayer. This brought a big sigh of relief in my heart, and now I was really excited for Monday's call from CCAI.